Affected.
It 10pm on a sunday night...i know i have not been bloggin for a long time.
hey guys, i am fine but just that i am very very very busy.
Moving on to a new phrase of my life, it means taking a big step of faith to move to a new challenge . Full of uncertainities even till today and i refrain myself from thinking ahead. But i preparing my heart to take up this challenge cos i know God will be with me.
Received a sms while i am having dinner with the girls last night.
Val's dad has passed away yday. I went to the wake few hours back with a heavy heart .
She recounted what happened for the past few months, in and out of the hospital countless times. It pains me to see her cried. She was my poly frd cum ex-collg. And i have never seen her cry in front of me before. In fact, my impression of her is always a bubbly and strong girl . It is the first time i see her break down . I so useless, instead of consoling her , my tears started to fight a battle against my eyes. My only regret is that is that i am not able to be with her during the toughest time and did not have a chance to pray for her dad. I really hope tat she can get over the depression soon........ i can't understand what she may have gone through but i believe it is definately a emotional war seeing your loved ones suffering and yet your hands are tied...
'Eve, dont wait till the day you lose the people you loved, then you started to cherish what you have lost .' This is a word by her that planted so deeply in my heart till now.
Friends, learn to treasure your family & loved ones. And it is never too late.....
Val-though you may not see my blog and do not know who God is, i will continue to pray for you. Rest assured that He will see you through in every circumstances.
Tomorrow will be another day ....
Labels: My thoughts
Miss karen's Birthday celebration.
Pix with the March baby :) -taken on Mar 28, 2007.
A Prayer.
Dear Lord, I thank You for this day.
I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God.
You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you.
I ask now for Your forgiveness. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm.
Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.
Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things. Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. And It's the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits.
I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart.
Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak... Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.
I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way. I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those that will delete this without sharing it with others.
I pray for those that don't believe. But I thank you that I believe. I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it. In Jesus' name. Amen.
Ready,Get Set, Go!!!!!
Pix with new carecell~ taken at ECP on 25Mar, 2007
After much encouragment by them , i finally picked up the courage to learn rollar-blading for the first time. It was fun only if i didnt fall down. Cant remember how many times i fall down actually, and i presume the sight muz be damm embarrasing. Lucky the guys are there to give me a hand. Phew!!!
The learning process of blading makes me ponder and relate to life. I learn, i fall and stand up by myself and sometimes with the strength of others. And there are times that no one is there to help you, but i have to rely on myself to stand on my feet. I admit it is tough coz i afraid of falling down again.
Anyway,i havent master the balancing yet, still need to hold on to someone. Not sure if i have the courage to do it again. Hee hee....i need a FOC trainer!!!!
karen, jia you!!!! So should I.
Gender elements???
Ah ah........
i come to know that guys and gals do think in different ways in every aspects. Its kinda of sad, isnt it? Sometimes , i do try very hard to accept this fact which in turn may bring some disappointment in vain. So how? Eventually, instead of thinking the way they do, i decide to put in my worthy efforts to behave the way they are.
The No.1 killer-being toooooooooooo insensitive. Never will they realised a hope will leads to disappointment. okay,its kind of contradicting here. By saying sorry which sometimes they dont mean it make things worse. But by remaining silent, its even worse. Nowadays, dont really like to hear 'apologetic' words from insincere guys because i have heard too much . I wonder it has become their habit to overuse and abuse the meaning .
The No.2 killer- when a gal tell a guy that 'its ok to cancel the appt, go ahead with your plans'. What they actually meant is ' i am supery angry, by all means, if you want'. i agreed that most of the times, we don't really mean what we said, its up to the guys whether they are smart enough to catch the hint .
The No.3 killer- Their selfish thinking. Retrospec, they will come out with tacky taglines in a way to apologise, but what they wanted is just to make themselves feel better.
Conclusion- Guys are hard to understand, Gals are hard to please.
Moods- Exhausted but Glad.
Last wednesday was a hectic day. It was my church prophetic night. I rushed down from my workplace to PL......hoping to be on time and even earlier. Was looking forward to the service and the message actually. While on the bus, received a call from my leader. I am required to stand in for someone for serving ...okay, which i agreed to. Kinda of last minute, didnt have the time to catch my breathe and i have found myself standing by the doorway welcoming and greeting ppl entering the church. I was in fact abit disappointed cos i wanted very much to attend the service but God has bring me joy while serving.
It was a great experience . Yeh, got to know a few trinitians too.
And i remembered this guy coming up to us and thanked us for serving. It was a touching moment , cos never expect a stranger who do that. Some of them even initiated a handshake with me before departing the church. The usual case is either you got a smile back or the better(rare) ones will greet you with a 'hi' or 'bye' in return. Its kind of motivating me from within to do a better job, not to stand there because i was told to or obliged to do so.
On my way back, i shared about my experience with some of them- if not for the serving, i would never have 'talked' or smile so much in the whole entire week. Admist of the tiredness on my face, i hope that i have done a great job as a host.
And the word from the Pastor that night is Open doors for opportunies and seeing beyond the impossibilities.
I was so beat that night and immediately flop down to bed.........
Kinship
Yesterday was a bad day. Before stepping into the house, i told myself to keep mum about the whole issue (maybe i should or should not). Not really pin-pointing fault at anyone or shall it be the case, no one is at fault anyway. Remember telling kelvin today and he said that he would do the same thing too. Was pondering the whole day , if i was her, would I have done the same. Perhaps i will...... (at least more concern of the other party's feelings,it would be better ).
I burst out in tears while telling my mom, it came naturally, not that i wanted to. Dont wish to bother her too much of my personal stuff ,esp matters that spill over to someone close to . As usual, she sided her again. Anyway, what's done are done, maybe things are not meant to be.
Wouldnt want such a trival issue to affect the kinship. What's matter most now is working hard and giving my parents a better life. I know God's grace and provision will suffice........
Everyone has a mission.
Cell on Mar 2, 2007 ,Friday , 8pm.
Cell was great! Something different, is we have 2 delegates joining us tonight.
Okay, let me start with P.Candy. She is an awesome lady, full of love to the young generation in Sri Lanka. Back home, she is a Pastor in Children ministry. For someone who do not see herself sowing her seeds in the younger generation many back years back ,transforming to a godly woman who followed obediently to God's vision, it was amazing how God has called many young men and women to share the Word in different ways. My regret to hear that the majority of the population there belong to other religions, only a minoity (2%) are believers. Hearing from her life story how they got opposed, being chased away with weapons by the villagers(mainly parents), I felt so blessed here cos we never encountered strong opposition from other religions. Even if there is, we do not get the pressure of beaten up of sharing the gospel. And we truely believe , as Candy do, the statistics will definately rise up, not a mere 20-40% ,but dare to say in God's presence, a full fold of 100%.
Pastor k is a Pastor in Japan ,leading a church with a congregation of 60members. I am able to sense his enthusiasm in sharing /applying what he has learnt to his own church.
My thought.
I truely believe God has been using Godly people in different parts of the world to do greater things, to share his Word, Love and Compassion. The walk is never easy.
Earthly beings will condemn you, but not Him. You can choose to ignore him, but he sees and hears you. He listens!!!! Many times, we just need to feel a loving presence nearby, and for sure, He will be the Only One.
Have you ever ponder there may be a time when you wanted to bring someone to Jesus, which you never have the the guts to? or you regretted you never done so earlier?................
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Mission trip in July.
cool.... feeling excited abt the trip now. Pray that God will see me through the uncertainity so that i can make it to the Mission trip.
Belated CNY post- all set ready for the CNY.
What's up for the CNY.
My Thought....
Enjoy all the chit-chating and fellowship . CNY is truely fun expecting those you have not seen for a very long time and of course , also enjoying each other accompany................
